today has been alright. kara spent the night last night. she needed to get away, and i'm glad she called. we talked for a while, and then...my ex calls with his cousin (they three-wayed me) and it was late. my ex was really high on allergy and energy pills. none of us knew why he took them. but i tried to get it out of him, and all that i could understand was that he thought that no one cared about him anymore. we all tried to drill it into his mind that we did, but i don't think he believed us. he kept telling me that he misses me and such, and i don't know. i mean, i'm no longer with him. and it's fine to hear it, and i'm glad he told me, because i like it when people are honest. we were all scared to death that something was wrong with him, but by the end of our conversation, we were thinking that he was going to be ok. then today i had a bad headache, so i took my headache medicine and took a nap for an hour before i had to go to work. then i got in the shower, and went to work. my grandparents came down, and are stayin 'till tomorrow. my boyfriend mike is gone with his and my friend ian until tomorrow. they went to warped tour...i'm not a big fan of the bands that are gonna be there, but hey, if it makes them happy lol. but i really wish they were here, i need them right now. i haven't had the greatest couple of days and they always know how to make me feel at least a bit better. and tomorrow i'm going to noah's ark in the dells with my friend tara who i haven't hung out with since last summer lol. so i'm a bit worried that we might not have much in common anymore. but hey, she's always been funny and fun, and right now that's what i need. i'm glad that i'm goin cuz i need to get away for a bit. i need to just go out and have fun. so i'm gonna try. but when i get back, it's probably going to just go back to normal. but, o well.


when you have depression, and you finally get rid of it...why can't it be gone forever. i just wish it would go away...for the rest of my life.